I *adore* my hound dawg. Coming home to a waggy tail and a Missy cuddle was just lovely, especially following last night’s events.
I ended up in an ambulance and then A&E after experiencing severe palpitations from the painkillers.
The ECG showed a crazy irregular heartbeat, but luckily it calmed down after an hour or two and I was allowed home after a chest x-ray and more tests.
My best friend died of an undetected heart condition at 17, which made the whole experience even more terrifying.
Sooo glad to be home and in my own bed.
There’s a reason I don’t take any kind of medication.
This evening I gave into the horrible pain in my hip that’s left me limping around since the weekend. I took some Naproxen, not the strongest out there, I know.
Anyways my heart feels as if it’s about to burst through my chest and my arms are occasionally shaking like crazy.
The tears keep on coming and my breathing is all over the place.
I don’t know why I’ve done this.. it always ends badly.
Too much cute!
She’s growing up so fast.
Dissociation is happening more and more as the days go on. Like my mimd is getting ready to die or something, y’know, reaching that state of “nothingness”.
It’s like I’m watching myself do all these human things - breathing, sleeping, breathing, taking a walk, making dinner - but inside I am empty.
All of a sudden I see my hands in front of me, like I have woken up in this body for the first time… and I’m back to reality.
It’s not fun.
Missy’s like “I can still hear you…”
If you find this hard to believe…I encourage you to question it. Question everything…find answers…Real answers. Raise awareness.
My sister showed me this earlier. So now they will be adding fluoride to water in the UK. I can’t believe it has made it to a GOSSIP magazine column.
“I say this with all the earnestness and sincerity of a scientist who has spent nearly 20 years’ research into the chemistry, biochemistry, physiology and pathology of fluorine—any person who drinks artificially fluorinated water for a period of one year or more will never again be the same person mentally or physically.”
Charles E. Perkins, 2 October 1954
see you old sport