My mother hasn’t replied to any calls or texts from me for about 6 weeks now. She doesn’t make an effort to see me regularly so I don’t know what is going on. Maybe she is on holiday, or busy with work. Could be dead for all I know. I keep being told how important family is, and how your mom should always be your best friend. It’s hard work to be close to somebody who doesn’t want to speak to you unless they have nothing better to do. And yet, I can’t just “let go” - it is NOT that simple.
My dad is suffering with his own mental health right now, and is wallowing, soaking up a lot of negativity from other people. I wish I could help him, and I do try my best when I can. He can be pretty unhelpful though, reminding me of my mother’s absence a lot. As such, I’ve stopped making so much effort to talk to him if I think the conversation will head in that direction.
The thing is, I need support too, and emotionally I have nobody to really talk to in person about how I feel, have a little cry and a cuddle.
I’m lost in this.